How can the only thing that’s killing me makes me feel so alive

No matter how hard I try, it just ain’t easy to stop loving you. I’ve fallen hard and it’s so hard to climb up again.

Sometimes we just wanna stop

Take the time to think

To overthink

The moments of happiness and sadness

That happened in our lives

We never know when the next chapter of our life starts

It just happens

Like in a blink of an eye

Or the moment we breathe

And there we have a new beginning

Sometimes we dont want new beginnings though

We dont want something to start

Because most of us

Are afraid they would end

What then would happen to us if everything else wont work out?

When everything just ends, right at that moment

We slowly crumble

We now become broken, into these jagged pieces

We try to assemble ourselves again

Making ourselves renewed

Changing our ways to be good enough

But who are we kidding?

No one can ever be good enough

There’s this unending need of satisfaction

We can never tell when we are really satisfied

What we do is pretend that we are to feel fulfilled

What we do is treat the simple things in our lives as great blessings

When in fact, we want more

Just more

Of what life can offer

Sometimes when we fall in love

We see the beauty of our partners in everything that they do

Imperfections are disregarded

Mistakes are forgiven

Tears and laughters are shared together

Neverending moments

Moments where you both feel infinite

But when fights come, what do we do?

We strongly defend what our opinion is

And our partner also does this

Exhanging different opinions on a certain subject

Then there would be screaming and shouting

And then we’d realize this isnt how its supposed to be

In the end we’ll eventually want to lose the fight to end it

To end the misunderstanding

To lose all the pride

Just to be back together

And experience those moments again

Sometimes we become numb

We feel nothing

‘Cause feelings are too mainstream

We close every door and window to ourselves

Not letting anyone enter our lives

We become these selfish people

Just selfish

Sometimes we are too unsure of ourselves

Unsure of what we want

Unsure of what we have are the things we deserve

Sometimes life can be too complicated for us to bear

So we just let it be

Let life turn us into these broken pieces

Let life turn us into miserable people

And let life make us feel the other way around